L♥ve is a Mutt

Awkwardness went dancing in the air as I was descending our apartment staircase about an hour ago. I caught my first glimpse of my housemate who was watching a movie on his laptop on our living room. Uhhh. We talked earlier on tweeter. (Yes, thanks to technology, we don't have to see face to face though we're under one roof.) Then, he said Uh - oh. Then, I said And, I added. Lol. I just need the ME time. Sorry, maybe we can watch the Chipmunks or Underworld next week or on Monday. Whichever flick I didn't watch. I want to be alone. I swear I can be forever alone. Haha. Because because... Errr, I don't know. I mean, I was totally okay before that d*** phone call. I can smile. I am not expecting anything from him. Text. Call, anything. I am skipping happily alone in my life.  Then, he told me to take him back.  He told me words that I love/yearn/need to hear with his perfect, now almost Canadian slang.  *world stopping, rose ...

It's only the third of December, but I think I am so loving this month. I've got me some {offline} activities lined up and the Lord has poured upon me online blessings, which I am very much grateful of. I realized that I don't want to lose the day job, I just want to make it big(ger) in my online career. Also, I am beginning to try out new things and explore the city, with friends or even alone. And, the once awkward event of meeting new people now actually entices me. via Now, I can finally say to myself that I have a life. Outside work. And that I actually do talk now. To other people rather than myself. For the past years, I have been tamed, which was also kind of a good thing. People always think that I'm the perfect daughter who can't break a plate or kill a mosquito. I was that helpless dame who was always provided with everything that she needs. An authoritative person once mentioned, "Some of you may have the looks of an angel, but yadda yadd...

Think of this as a music response to the All That You Are . My closure. Though the article below (with the same title as the song) may suggest hope, I would not like my brain to incur thoughts of a happy ending. To protect myself. To be happy again. Can I just be selfish from now on? And, just as I have gotten out of the mess I'm in, I am wishing that I am not close to falling into another trap again. Here it is. Hit play. via The past is like a hand full of dust it filters through your finger disappearing little by little. . . I wish for one day I could go back . . .in another life I would do things differently. Yeah, so now, I can drink to my freedom. Brand new life! And, to those who can relate to the song, you'd definitely like this article. The One That Got Away Source: The Manila Times By: Mark J. Macapagal In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. Ther...

via Set up the mood. Push the play button. :} It's Candice's Accola's Hard to Say Goodbye. I just love the Chevrolet part.  When you finally realized you're not that perfect daughter that adults love.. When you seem not to care if everything does not go your way.. When you see people who start to care for you the way that they shouldn't.. When you talk to your friends and liberating yourself in the process.. When you drink beer and get that temporary high more than once a week.. When you sip and chew on chocolate chips from your Starbucks frap afterwards.. When people, strangers or friends, have been telling you that they missed your posts.. When someone encourages you to do something you love.. When you start to open yourself to someone for the first time.. When you finally get to hear things that you don't want to hear.. When you screw up for the first time in your life.. When someone finally thinks you're dumb and shallow.. When wron...

I think I am having a quarter-life crisis and in my head, I walk this bridge every single day, only to end up on the very same point where I have started to trod. All those drop-your-current-life-setup-and-seek-your-true-happiness quotes, pictures and stories that I have stumbled upon over the internet made me feel this way. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I know I want a new life that could save me from my everyday mundane undertakings. Honestly, I think I made the wrong decision in college. And I am willing to make another wrong, bold decision after my first job. After all, Bad decisions make good stories. I am once again, as what I have told my friends this morning, withdrawing from the world. And I am afraid that I am so damn good at it. I go with the flow like a dead fish can keep up with the stream. I am seeking for challenge, but now that challenge is starting to pick up a fight  with me, I walk the other way. Chicken. And I wa...